Yay! I finally did it! I am writing my entry on the actual day it's supposed to go up! Now, to make sure that this keeps happening...that will be the challenge. It's not like I don't have tons of stuff to write about...believe me, I do...I just forget to come on here and actually write it down. Thank you phone alarm...I just set it to go off every Saturday and remind me to write on here. As long as the battery keeps up, I should be good to go!
This week has not been the most fun...most of it has been spent looking at potential apartments. I found quite a few that I liked, that were affordable, that were in good locations...the problem? Money. Stupid money. I hate money. Actually, no, I don't hate money. I hate not having money. That is what sucks.
Even more frustrating is that I have a job. I really like my job, however, I am not getting anywhere near enough hours at work, and can barely afford the stuff that I have to buy, let alone half the rent for an apartment. Ugh. So, now I get to try to find another job. Because I had oh-so-much fun looking for the one I finally got. Riiiight.
The good news is that I actually have a reference to put on my resume. Bad news? I've only been working there for about 3 months. Most places want 6 months of "experience." I can't wait another 3 months to find a job and make more money. At this point, I'd pretty much take any kind of job...well, within reason...as long as it pays decently and I actually am working, not just hired and then working 13 hours a week (yeah, you try living on that when you're making $8/hour...good luck).
So, needless to say, the apartment idea has been shelved until I can afford my part, which in a way is good. Pete and I were getting pretty snippy with each other over it. I was frustrated because I really want to move into my own place and actually unpack my belongings, and he was getting frustrated because he didn't know what more he could do. In truth, he's doing more than enough...working 2 jobs, and wrangling a raise at one of them...I couldn't make him see that there wasn't a way for him to "fix" this problem. So, this week we were pretty unpleasant to each other. Not a fun time. But, last night we finally decided to just forget about an apartment and let it happen when it happens. It immediately took the stress and guilt off of me. :) He's so great.
And he's right, if we keep trying to force it to happen when we (i.e., I) can't afford it, all we're going to be doing is setting ourselves up for more stress and fighting every month when bills are due. Stupid logical, Pete. :) But he's right. Of course.
In other news: I think that the freezing cold may be heading out...yay! I am so over winter. Also, Audrey is doing better in school, which is great news. She's been really taking initiative at home, too. Really interacting, as opposed to just grabbing you and forcing you to do things for her. And the eye contact is incredible. I really think she's made some amazing progress this year. Now let's just hope it continues! More next week!
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