Sunday, May 8 4:38pm
Today is Mother's Day. Pete was really sweet and let me sleep in :) The girls have been mostly well-behaved today, which is a nice change. We've just been hanging out at home today. Maybe later we can go do something, but it's getting late and I have to get Audrey ready for school tomorrow. Isabel has decided that good behavior is over, and I'm watching her pull all the books off the bookshelf **sigh**...what do you do?
This afternoon was fun. The girls were watching a movie, so Pete and I hung out together and it was great to get to spend some time with him when we both weren't completely exhausted. I am so happy with him, I know I say that alot, but it's true. He makes me feel part of something. I don't really know hoe to explain it...I know people say there's that "bubble" that couples have when they first start dating and then it goes away, but it's been almost 10 months, and I still get that feeling with him. It's like we're the only two people in the world and nothing else matters. The girls and Pete are my life. He is my partner in it all, and helps me to feel less overwhelmed by life in general, and the girls in particular.
It's been a little weird not being with my mom today. Apparently my brothers took her out to lunch. No one thought to call me and tell me what was happening. I'm not going to say that doesn't hurt my feelings a little, but there's nothing I can do about it. I am not surprised that they didn't include me...I mean, what if I'd asked if Pete could come? Which is completely stupid, of course I wouldn't. I know how Paul is about him. But to not spend Mother's day with my own mom because my brother is a tool isn't very fair. Whatever. We took her to dinner a couple weeks ago. Hopefully Paul will come around at some point, but I'm not holding my breath.
Isabel talked to Jon today, mentioned Pete quite a few times, which was awkward. But at least he knows that Pete is part of her life and she seems to like him. That must help. Or not. I have no idea, to be honest. But for now it is what it is. And he's just going to have to deal with it. We'll figure it out as we go.
Right now, Pete is at the store. He just totally lost his temper because we couldn't find the keys to the car. We looked for about 15 minutes, and it was because I was exhausted when I got home from work last night around midnight. I vaugely remember having them in my hand when I opened the door, but didn't remember where I put them down. Then I thought where would Isabel put them? Opened the kitchen sink cabinet: bingo! Pete was completely pissed by this point. I mean, yes, it's frustrating when things get lost, but you can't lose it like that everytime something gets misplaced. Especially when it's not like he had to be at owrk or an appointment. He was going to the grocery store. I know he wanted to get it done and that he's exhausted, but geeze. Watching him lose his temper like that really made the happy feeling of this afternoon go away. Quickly. I don't want the rest of the day to be ruined because of that. That would suck. I'm just going to have to act like everything is fine and hopefully he'll calm down and quit acting like some sort of dictator who has to get all these things done NOW. That guy is not fun and makes me feel like just shutting down. I know he gets intense about getting work or chores done, but he doesn't have to make it the way he does. I understand that things need to get done, but you can have fun, too.
I have the best boyfriend ever. He just called me from the grocery store to apologize for losing it. :) I would have called him right when he left, but I didn't think he had any credit on his phone. I hate fighting with him. As soon as he walked off to go take the trash out and go to the store, I wanted to chase after him and tell him I wasn't mad anymore. But I didn't have shoes on, and I was afraid he was still mad and then might say something to hurt my feelings. He didn't, though...he was his usual incredible self and called and apologized and made me love him a little bit more. I can't wait to get home so I can give him a big hug and kiss!
Monday, May 9 9:29pm
Today is Pete's birthday...he's 33 and I have been giving him a lot of shit about it. I spent most of the day preparing for his birthday meal. I asked him what he wanted, and he gave me this recipe from his Meat Book by that British guy Hugh Whatever that he makes me watch those shows about. Anyway, it was for Herb Roasted Chicken. The recipe itself was pretty simple, but I had to go to the store to buy herbs, because I don't have acres of garden around my house, like Hugh does. In the book it says to go grab a couple handfuls of whatever is growing...riiiiight. But I got that stuff, a card, and then the indredients to make his chocolate-walnut cake with coffee-chocolate frosting. I forgot to put the nuts in the cake, but other than that, I think it turned out pretty good. The frosting was a little runny from adding the instant coffee, eh, you learn. I'm sure there's a way to make it so that doesn't happen. I'm just glad that everything was good (he says) and that he liked it. :)
He's so important to me and I want him to know it. I don't have money to take him on vacations or to buy him things, but I can cook. I can tell him how much I love him. That's what I can do. I just hope it's enough.
On a different note, I found a really funny website: ShitMyStudentsWrite.com.
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