Last night was LONG...Isabel isn't feeling good and was up most of the night coughing. I felt so bad for her because there wasn't much I could do for her except try to get her back to sleep when she woke up. That's one of the worst things about being a mom: watching your kid feel bad and not being able to make it better.
Seven hours later:
My mom came by today and hung out for a few hours. It was good to see her, we chatted and she took me and the girls to the grocery store to get some stuff. Isabel had a complete meltdown in the store...like hitting, screaming, going rigid...lots of fun. I knew it was because she was tired, but geeze! It was like she was possessed! Finally she calmed down, but for a while there I thought her head was going to start spinning!
Now she's watching "Ponyo" again and Audrey is laying in her room playing with some toys. All is calm...for now...let's just hope it stays that way. :)
This week has been okay. Audrey was really sick Monday and Tuesday...like, fever, sleeping 23 hours a day, not eating sick...I was worried for a while that she was going to end up in the hospital again, but by Wednesday she was doing better. We finally got her bus situation taken care of--thank goodness! All it took was me emailing her teacher, principal, and the autism compliance specialist to get it taken care of! hahaha! It makes me glad to think that I won't have to deal with DISD after next year...
Speaking of plans for the future...Pete and I have been doing a lot of talking about weddings and marriage. Things are looking pretty serious, and he even had me give him a short list of rings that I like (granted, this was because I sent him a pretty long list on Monday or Tuesday). But if he wasn't in the same place, he wouldn't have been so interested...right?? The date is pretty much set: July 28, 2012. We met on July 17 of last year, and this summer would be too soon to have anything put together...so I looked at a calendar and found a Saturday that was close to our anniversary. This year July 23 is actually on a Saturday, but I think that it would be too soon. Not that I am worried about our commitment to each other, but that we could not afford anything more that a trip to City Hall...not what either of us has in mind. :) I love that he actually will look at wedding stuff with me and give me opinions. This is about both of us, not just me. I have never understood why people tell the bride that the day is all about her...um, without the groom you're just a nut in a white dress at a hugely expensive party...by yourself.
The only person I've told (aside from the Internet!) is Amanda. Mostly because of my friends, she's the one I talk to the most. Normally I would have told my mom and sister by now, too, but I don't want to take away from Dianne's news :) She and Caleb are having a baby (it was confirmed) and she's due December 4th!! I've already gotten the attention/excitement of having babies and getting engaged and married...I'm not so selfish that I can't let her have that. And besides, we're not even officially engaged yet. Once that happens, then obviously I'll tell everyone :) But for now, I'm fine with keeping it (mostly) to myself. Besides, Paul is just now sort-of coming around. He is giving us his old couch and love seat, and even bringing it here, but he said he doesn't want to see Pete when he does...luckily, we have plans with one of Pete's friends tomorrow for the entire day, so I told my mom that I would give her a key to give to Paul and he could bring it by while we're gone. I can just imagine the shit storm when he finds out that we're getting married. BUT it wouldn't be until next summer...by then, we'll have been dating for 2 years...I'd say that's plenty of time. And please, him and Elisa were dating for like 6 months or something before they got engaged.
Planning this wedding with Pete is a lot of fun...and is coming shaping up to be a much different type of wedding than the one I had with Jon. It seems like Pete and I both want a small, semi-casual, outdoor wedding. It's going to be special and only have the people we want there. The colors are looking like they'll be lemon yellow, white, and a kind of charcoal grey color. I saw them in a picture on the Knot, and it seemed perfect for a summer wedding. And yellow is such a joyous, optimistic color...exactly what I imagine for my marriage to Pete :) There are lots of really pretty decor ideas using tall vases and lemons...maybe I should grow a lemon tree! hahaha!
Even though we don't have a whole lot of money, I wouldn't trade my life now for my life a year ago...or even two years ago...I feel like a different person: happier, freer, more optimistic about life, the future, and pretty much everything. I know a lot of people would chalk that up to the "honeymoon phase" of a relationship, and they may be right...it has only been about 8 1/2 months that Pete and I have been dating, but the changes I've seen in myself are more than just the happy feeling you get when you're falling in love with someone. It's like I've found myself again, and while I was doing that, I found him. And he helped me with becoming the me I used to be (does any of this even make sense??)...which is weird, because he didn't even know the old me. That is just another example of how I know he is the one for me...well, that and even after 8 1/2 months I still sometimes get butterflies when he smiles at me :)
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