Sunday, May 8 4:38pm
Today is Mother's Day. Pete was really sweet and let me sleep in :) The girls have been mostly well-behaved today, which is a nice change. We've just been hanging out at home today. Maybe later we can go do something, but it's getting late and I have to get Audrey ready for school tomorrow. Isabel has decided that good behavior is over, and I'm watching her pull all the books off the bookshelf **sigh**...what do you do?
This afternoon was fun. The girls were watching a movie, so Pete and I hung out together and it was great to get to spend some time with him when we both weren't completely exhausted. I am so happy with him, I know I say that alot, but it's true. He makes me feel part of something. I don't really know hoe to explain it...I know people say there's that "bubble" that couples have when they first start dating and then it goes away, but it's been almost 10 months, and I still get that feeling with him. It's like we're the only two people in the world and nothing else matters. The girls and Pete are my life. He is my partner in it all, and helps me to feel less overwhelmed by life in general, and the girls in particular.
It's been a little weird not being with my mom today. Apparently my brothers took her out to lunch. No one thought to call me and tell me what was happening. I'm not going to say that doesn't hurt my feelings a little, but there's nothing I can do about it. I am not surprised that they didn't include me...I mean, what if I'd asked if Pete could come? Which is completely stupid, of course I wouldn't. I know how Paul is about him. But to not spend Mother's day with my own mom because my brother is a tool isn't very fair. Whatever. We took her to dinner a couple weeks ago. Hopefully Paul will come around at some point, but I'm not holding my breath.
Isabel talked to Jon today, mentioned Pete quite a few times, which was awkward. But at least he knows that Pete is part of her life and she seems to like him. That must help. Or not. I have no idea, to be honest. But for now it is what it is. And he's just going to have to deal with it. We'll figure it out as we go.
Right now, Pete is at the store. He just totally lost his temper because we couldn't find the keys to the car. We looked for about 15 minutes, and it was because I was exhausted when I got home from work last night around midnight. I vaugely remember having them in my hand when I opened the door, but didn't remember where I put them down. Then I thought where would Isabel put them? Opened the kitchen sink cabinet: bingo! Pete was completely pissed by this point. I mean, yes, it's frustrating when things get lost, but you can't lose it like that everytime something gets misplaced. Especially when it's not like he had to be at owrk or an appointment. He was going to the grocery store. I know he wanted to get it done and that he's exhausted, but geeze. Watching him lose his temper like that really made the happy feeling of this afternoon go away. Quickly. I don't want the rest of the day to be ruined because of that. That would suck. I'm just going to have to act like everything is fine and hopefully he'll calm down and quit acting like some sort of dictator who has to get all these things done NOW. That guy is not fun and makes me feel like just shutting down. I know he gets intense about getting work or chores done, but he doesn't have to make it the way he does. I understand that things need to get done, but you can have fun, too.
I have the best boyfriend ever. He just called me from the grocery store to apologize for losing it. :) I would have called him right when he left, but I didn't think he had any credit on his phone. I hate fighting with him. As soon as he walked off to go take the trash out and go to the store, I wanted to chase after him and tell him I wasn't mad anymore. But I didn't have shoes on, and I was afraid he was still mad and then might say something to hurt my feelings. He didn't, though...he was his usual incredible self and called and apologized and made me love him a little bit more. I can't wait to get home so I can give him a big hug and kiss!
Monday, May 9 9:29pm
Today is Pete's birthday...he's 33 and I have been giving him a lot of shit about it. I spent most of the day preparing for his birthday meal. I asked him what he wanted, and he gave me this recipe from his Meat Book by that British guy Hugh Whatever that he makes me watch those shows about. Anyway, it was for Herb Roasted Chicken. The recipe itself was pretty simple, but I had to go to the store to buy herbs, because I don't have acres of garden around my house, like Hugh does. In the book it says to go grab a couple handfuls of whatever is growing...riiiiight. But I got that stuff, a card, and then the indredients to make his chocolate-walnut cake with coffee-chocolate frosting. I forgot to put the nuts in the cake, but other than that, I think it turned out pretty good. The frosting was a little runny from adding the instant coffee, eh, you learn. I'm sure there's a way to make it so that doesn't happen. I'm just glad that everything was good (he says) and that he liked it. :)
He's so important to me and I want him to know it. I don't have money to take him on vacations or to buy him things, but I can cook. I can tell him how much I love him. That's what I can do. I just hope it's enough.
On a different note, I found a really funny website: ShitMyStudentsWrite.com.
Friday, June 3, 2011
May 7, 2011
Friday, May 6 3:05pm
I was really bad about writing this week, which isn't too surprising. It flew by! It's been a pretty good week, though, even if Isabel has been refusing to sleep. Audrey's been acting up, too, but I think that's more to do with her school. We're probably going to be sending her back to Plano next year. I think that might be the best thing for her.
So, the job at Macy's...that is done. I found daycare for the girls, but it was going to be so expensive, it wasn't worth it for me to work. Total it was going to be $269/week. I make 8/hour...before taxes it would have been about $290. That's not counting gas money driving to and from work twice a day (to go, then come back to get Audrey from her bus, then go back to drop her off, then come back after work). My work was willing to let me take my break at the same time every day so I could meet her bus, but the daycare cost was going to eat my entire paycheck...and then some. Once Isabel's in preschool, I will be able to find something and won't have to pay these ridiculous prices. Until then, I will go back to being a full-time stay-at-home-mom...which really isn't that bad :) Well, until I'm going completely stir-crazy, but until then, I should be fine. I'll just have to find stuff for us to do.
Audrey just got home from school and I got some cute fake flowers and a card for Mother's Day. I know she didn't make any of it, or write her name, but it's still nice. Speaking of, I need to get my mom a card. I'll do that tomorrow or tonight. Guess not tomorrow, because I am still working from 1-11:15 (yeah, that's gonna be fun). It reminded me (getting the card and flowers) of when I was in first or second grade. We made bath salts for our moms...don't ask me how, I just remember a baggie of stinky salt crystals that I gave my mom. I wonder if she ever used them. I should ask her.
I feel so relieved that I don't have to figure out a safe place for Audrey to go after-school. I was really stressing about that. I would have liked to be working and making some money, not to mention being around other adults for a few hours a day, but I guess it just wasn't meant to happen right now. Pete was so great about it when I sent him a text telling him that I was freaking out. I really was, too...I was shaking and having trouble breathing because I was trying to figure out a way to make everything work out. He was so sweet and called me to make sure I was alright. Then sent me an email telling me that if I have to stay home for now it's okay. :) I'm such an incredibly lucky person to have him. We'll be able to make it work, God knows I've made it on less! And he suggested that I try selling Avon or something (my mom does) so maybe I'll try that.
Alright, Isabel wants me to play with her, and I need to call my sister back. They got to hear the heartbeat yesterday and I want to hear all about it! :)
I was really bad about writing this week, which isn't too surprising. It flew by! It's been a pretty good week, though, even if Isabel has been refusing to sleep. Audrey's been acting up, too, but I think that's more to do with her school. We're probably going to be sending her back to Plano next year. I think that might be the best thing for her.
So, the job at Macy's...that is done. I found daycare for the girls, but it was going to be so expensive, it wasn't worth it for me to work. Total it was going to be $269/week. I make 8/hour...before taxes it would have been about $290. That's not counting gas money driving to and from work twice a day (to go, then come back to get Audrey from her bus, then go back to drop her off, then come back after work). My work was willing to let me take my break at the same time every day so I could meet her bus, but the daycare cost was going to eat my entire paycheck...and then some. Once Isabel's in preschool, I will be able to find something and won't have to pay these ridiculous prices. Until then, I will go back to being a full-time stay-at-home-mom...which really isn't that bad :) Well, until I'm going completely stir-crazy, but until then, I should be fine. I'll just have to find stuff for us to do.
Audrey just got home from school and I got some cute fake flowers and a card for Mother's Day. I know she didn't make any of it, or write her name, but it's still nice. Speaking of, I need to get my mom a card. I'll do that tomorrow or tonight. Guess not tomorrow, because I am still working from 1-11:15 (yeah, that's gonna be fun). It reminded me (getting the card and flowers) of when I was in first or second grade. We made bath salts for our moms...don't ask me how, I just remember a baggie of stinky salt crystals that I gave my mom. I wonder if she ever used them. I should ask her.
I feel so relieved that I don't have to figure out a safe place for Audrey to go after-school. I was really stressing about that. I would have liked to be working and making some money, not to mention being around other adults for a few hours a day, but I guess it just wasn't meant to happen right now. Pete was so great about it when I sent him a text telling him that I was freaking out. I really was, too...I was shaking and having trouble breathing because I was trying to figure out a way to make everything work out. He was so sweet and called me to make sure I was alright. Then sent me an email telling me that if I have to stay home for now it's okay. :) I'm such an incredibly lucky person to have him. We'll be able to make it work, God knows I've made it on less! And he suggested that I try selling Avon or something (my mom does) so maybe I'll try that.
Alright, Isabel wants me to play with her, and I need to call my sister back. They got to hear the heartbeat yesterday and I want to hear all about it! :)
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